Day 614: Broken Cycle

So today I was sure I'd freak out. I didn't. I spent the morning listening to Con Law lectures on my iPod (I have them on my iPod. I'm a law student through and through, it would seem). I picked up my mom from the airport at around one. We had lunch out at taco bell, and then I came back and studied while she went grocery shopping. The minimal amount of food in my apartment appalled her, but that's all right - we ate real food tonight, as it were. I finished writing my outline and when I went over it I realized that there's a lot I didn't put on there that I still know. I don't feel nearly as good about the material this time around as I did last time. But it's in my head. I'm hoping I don't completely and utterly blank on the essays like I did on Monday. Again, I don't feel as though I've studied nearly enough.

For supper Mom and I had cheese, fruit, vegetables, and crackers. I'm all for meals like that. I can't count the number of times dinner was apples and cheese for me. Afterward we reviewed my Con Law outline, and then watched some Law & Order. Here I am, quietly spazzing. But I'm not nearly as stressed as I could be.

Should be.

Maybe I shouldn't be as stressed as I was last semester. After all, I've already survived one set of exams. I haven't heard back from my boss, though, and that's really freaking me out. Maybe he won't be my boss this summer. Hmmmm.

Con Law tomorrow. I know Uncle Sean has high expectations for me, and I'm terrified I won't meet them. But it's not about him - it's about me just surviving. And keeping my scholarship.