Day 217: Oh yeah awake...
Oct. 29th, 2005 12:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nagi_schwarzI am going to be awake for really ungodly hours. Perhaps there will be a strange half-conscious entry later on tonight at some really random, unhealthy hour. I really should update more often, but this last week I've been crazy busy. As it seems to be with my end of the week entries, we'll break it down by day of the week.
It's weird when we have short weeks. American Lit was, well...the less said about that the better. Continental Lit is always awesome. I really do like Aton. He's a seriously cool guy, his lectures are useful and our discussions are, for the most part, interesting and intellectually stimulating. Lunch was always fun, because the gang meets up and we all get to talk. And we get to see Aya and Panda. Rowsdower was at lunch for the first time in a while, and I kitty-glomped him gently so he didn't choke on his plastic fork. I felt weird showing up for critical methods after having skipped on Friday, but as it turns out I was one of the few faithful who emailed the professor with an progress report. Hopefully he will be replying soon. But hey - I've managed to stay in the ranks of the good students despite having skipped a day. Heh heh. I went back to my room after the class to try to get some sleep, and Alex popped by. Nick and I had been tossing around the idea of going to see Domino (although neither of us had any clue as to when it was showing) but I told Alex we could all hang out and play some Magic. He also told me that he'd brought down his Devil May Cry 3, some Tenchu and a Mortal Kombat game. I told him that was cool and we could play after supper. Nick ended up coming by after supper, all drowsy and whatnot, and curled up on my bed in an attempt to sleep, but he gave in to temptation and played some MK with us. Trashed me pretty bad. Wow - I have got to practice at that game. The new MK game is pretty cool, with the different fighting styles and weapons and whatnot. Nick curled up to sleep after the others left. I played guard duty to Erin and walked her to class, and when I got back the others were gone so I just sort of curled up next to him and let him sleep. He's really adorable when he sleeps. Or when he's sleepy. Heh heh.
We ended up in the loft because Nick randomly rented it out, and we played some magic while he watched Scarface (although I cuddled with him between games). Chibi Scott came by - I was surprised so see him when I returned from guard duty with Erin, but then he and Josh ran off to build decks and whatnot. But we all ended up in the Loft together. Del even came along, even though she didn't play. Scott is such a funny kid. We had so much fun, just sitting around and laughing and talking and whatnot. He's got a great sense of humor, and I think everyone laughed that night. My friends are so awesome. Del and I were talking about it earlier today, and despite all the pathetic-ness going on, and our emotional roller coasters. We are happy. We have an amazing, supportive network of friends and we have fun with them, we're at college studying to become what we want to be...we're just so happy! Don't worry, mom, we are happy. You can be sick and still be happy.
I went to institute. Sat next to this nice return missionary girl named Lindsey. She just got back from Texas. Del didn't go, but mentioned that one of times she'd gone when I hadn't that she'd met Lindsey. I think that explains the confused look on her face when she sat down next to me and I wasn't the person she'd expected. She was nice, though, and I liked her. I walked Erin to class and then headed to criminal justice. I told her I'd pick her up after class because my class usually got out late - and that day was the one time it got out late. I now have this one hour massive panel discussion thing to do next Thursday on top of the paper abstract due Tuesday, which means I am going to spend tomorrow, rather ostensibly and to Brad's great pleasure, in the library doing research. The library freaks me out. But I caught Erin just as she was heading out of the building and we went to lunch together. I'm still a little weird about eating. On Wednesday I hit a seriously bad case of the dry heaves for no good reason and food has been sort of touch-and-go ever since. We ate pretty quickly and then I retreated to my room to get some reading done. I agreed to go freak shopping with BenTen for a gag gift for her man. We also hit the DI, the Catholic thrift store and the DQ to check on a cake. I am soooooo going to need pills for the party. Pizza and ice cream cake? A special kind of poison, let me tell ya. Afterwards, well, I was mopey. I confess, I get dreadfully mopey if I haven't seen Nick all day, so I decided to brave hell floor and go see him. The mopey-ness is what constitutes the 'pathetic' of mine and Del's "SHGP Shiny Happy Glowy PATHETIC" slogan. His floor was scary enough when they left the door propped open, but now the door is shut, and it's weird. I seriously felt like I was approaching the gate to hell as I headed up the stairs toward it. It opens fine, but swings shut slowly, with that classic horror movie creaky noise that says a demon will jump out and attack you as soon as the door is shut. I just sort of stood nervously in front of Nick and talked to him, said hi and made sure he was all right. Hugged him and fled. That place is so creepy. A bunch of us headed down to supper together and ate in the Lightning Lounge because no one uses it and we're determined to turn it into nerdspace. Nick did show up for supper and we all sat around talking until gaming came about. Pell's campaign is awesome. Luka got way more action this time around - I tried her magic (without earning some seriously hard paradox) and even fought. Apparently Rowsdower loves it when kids go around stabbing people. Luka is pretty vicious little girl. She also needs to learn how to drive a motorcycle. She broke Marty's character's arm with a spell and was gagged as a result. Some grandly shocking moments emerged from that. I love being able to shock NPC's in game, and Marty and I teamed up. No one remembers that Luka is all of eleven, though. Now she knows he's a weretiger, at least. Maybe I ought to see if she figures out that Pell and BenTen's characters are vampires. I can never remember the names of BenTen's characters. Grrrrr. But gaming was fun. I retreated to my room to finish up some homework and turned in for the night when I started nodding off over the Said book. When we were in the Lightning lounge, Del ate with us for once because she didn't work. We all took turns being childish and jumping onto the love sacs, and Del took a nasty thump. Now she looks like a battered wife and her vision is sorta blurry in one eye. Erin and I sorta spazzed out with Alycen (our RA) told us that Del's pupils weren't dilating properly so we took poor Del to the hospital in the middle of the night just to be safe. I just wouldn't feel right if she'd died on us or something. How would we explain that to her mother? But hey, at least everyone made it home safe.
Rodney didn't show up for American lit on Wednesday so we couldn't carry out his nefarious plans for today. Del and I passed notes - something I haven't done in a while - going over the finer notes of intention versus intentionality. I headed back to my dorm after checking my mail and stuff and decided to settle in to read me some Ovid when the phone rang. It was BenTen. She had said it would be cool if I picked her up at nine. It was nine twenty when I ran to my car to get her. I felt so bad about forgetting, but she was cool about it. Then we spent about ten minutes attempting to parallel park my car and laughing. I had done so just fine the night before with Del's instruction, but BenTen's was clearly not working so we just ended up trying for a spot in the back, with some surprisingly decent success. Continental Lit was awesome, as usual. We had fun talking about Catullus and his surprisingly modern love poems, for all that they were written during the Roman Republic. Most of us were sort of amused at his angst, although one girl said she sympathised with him. I pointed out that at the end of a relationship everyone looks back and goes, "Gosh, that was pathetic, wasn't it?" I said it for Del because it's the sort of thing she'd laugh at. Lunch was a simple affair. Aya and Panda were there, as well as Alex and Seirra's coworker Holly. Eventually we all departed. I read some Said, and then slept some. Rowsmakitty woke me up, and neither me, nor Del nor Rowsdower wanted to go to class, but we went anyway. I didn't get a headache from critical methods this time. I met up with my CJ presentation group afterward and we have our project all divided and ready to go, so we'll meet again on Wednesday and get some last details ironed out. I didn't realize Misti had a daughter. But I like her. She's cool. Cory is cool. Robert is sort of annoying, but I'm willing to work with the guy.
After the meeting I headed back to the dorms and debated the merits of braving hellfloor again and seeing if Nick was alive. Calland cancelled the paper and worksheet that would have been due Monday, so now my workload seems significantly lighter (a point Brad would very much like to dispute) and so I was willing to do some slacking. He was awake, so we headed to my room to watch some Outlaw Star that Josh generously provided. Then we went to supper. On the way to supper I saw Erin walking from the Housing office, so I slowed down to wait for her so we could walk together, and I saw that she was really on the edge. I gave her a hug and she sorta started to cry, so I sent the boys ahead and took her back to my room. I have her some Kleenex and just watched helplessly while she cried. I am so not good at dealing with crying girls, but I'm willing for my friends. :D She said that she talked to Newman and he said there was nothing legally he could do to evil stalker man, but he wasn't very sensitive about it either and Erin is genuinely freaked out. She calmed down enough to face the world, and we headed to dinner. For one moment I had this strange irrational thought to ask her to kneel down with me and pray (Schuldig is guffawing in disbelief and where did Farfarello get that poniard?), and then decided against it on threat of being rendered flamey, and recommended she ask someone for a blessing. That's the one downfall of not knowing any LDS boys - we have no one to call up in the middle of the night for blessings. Erin mentioned that her parents were coming down to deliver her car and she could ask her father for a blessing, which seemed like a much better option.
After supper we all went more or less our separate ways, except Nick followed me back to my place and we watched some more Outlaw Star. That boy is perpetually sleepy and hungry, and I joked that he was probably growing again. He looked a little startled when I mentioned that some boys don't stop growing until they're up in their twenties. He's funny when he's sleepy, making cute sleepy kitten noises. He also discovered that when we're curled up just right his eyelashes (very long and make me jealous) brush my ear in a very ticklish butterfly kiss, so he tried to find out just how ticklish I was. Anyone else who knows me knows that I am disappointingly non-ticklish. It sort of wore off as I emerged from childhood. In the end I let him sleep and just curled up next to him and read for a bit. The rest of the girls on our floor were really really loud, and Nick sort of wondered how I slept through it. I didn't think it would look quite right if a disheveled boy stepped out of my room and politely asked them to keep it down because he was trying to sleep. Josh got a job with BenTen so we woke her at half past nine and they went to work together. Eventually Nick retreated to his own room to finish sleeping - also abandoning his sneakers, so I expect to see him sometime tomorrow when he realizes his shoes are missing. Erin and I went to visit Del before she went off to visit the Rodney again. Apparently Rowsdower is a little puzzled at the emergence of a sort-of relationship from them. Heh heh. Me sleeping on and off next to Nick was a supremely bad idea, as Brad pointed out constantly even when I was studying, so now I am annoyingly (but happily!) awake and updating my journal. I ran into Kawaranai and K-san online until Alex knocked on the window for a visit. We talked a bit and then had to wait until the girls on my floor settled down so he could sneak out. So this update thing has taken a lot longer than it should have and I've listened to a load of music.
Good night, all.
It's weird when we have short weeks. American Lit was, well...the less said about that the better. Continental Lit is always awesome. I really do like Aton. He's a seriously cool guy, his lectures are useful and our discussions are, for the most part, interesting and intellectually stimulating. Lunch was always fun, because the gang meets up and we all get to talk. And we get to see Aya and Panda. Rowsdower was at lunch for the first time in a while, and I kitty-glomped him gently so he didn't choke on his plastic fork. I felt weird showing up for critical methods after having skipped on Friday, but as it turns out I was one of the few faithful who emailed the professor with an progress report. Hopefully he will be replying soon. But hey - I've managed to stay in the ranks of the good students despite having skipped a day. Heh heh. I went back to my room after the class to try to get some sleep, and Alex popped by. Nick and I had been tossing around the idea of going to see Domino (although neither of us had any clue as to when it was showing) but I told Alex we could all hang out and play some Magic. He also told me that he'd brought down his Devil May Cry 3, some Tenchu and a Mortal Kombat game. I told him that was cool and we could play after supper. Nick ended up coming by after supper, all drowsy and whatnot, and curled up on my bed in an attempt to sleep, but he gave in to temptation and played some MK with us. Trashed me pretty bad. Wow - I have got to practice at that game. The new MK game is pretty cool, with the different fighting styles and weapons and whatnot. Nick curled up to sleep after the others left. I played guard duty to Erin and walked her to class, and when I got back the others were gone so I just sort of curled up next to him and let him sleep. He's really adorable when he sleeps. Or when he's sleepy. Heh heh.
We ended up in the loft because Nick randomly rented it out, and we played some magic while he watched Scarface (although I cuddled with him between games). Chibi Scott came by - I was surprised so see him when I returned from guard duty with Erin, but then he and Josh ran off to build decks and whatnot. But we all ended up in the Loft together. Del even came along, even though she didn't play. Scott is such a funny kid. We had so much fun, just sitting around and laughing and talking and whatnot. He's got a great sense of humor, and I think everyone laughed that night. My friends are so awesome. Del and I were talking about it earlier today, and despite all the pathetic-ness going on, and our emotional roller coasters. We are happy. We have an amazing, supportive network of friends and we have fun with them, we're at college studying to become what we want to be...we're just so happy! Don't worry, mom, we are happy. You can be sick and still be happy.
I went to institute. Sat next to this nice return missionary girl named Lindsey. She just got back from Texas. Del didn't go, but mentioned that one of times she'd gone when I hadn't that she'd met Lindsey. I think that explains the confused look on her face when she sat down next to me and I wasn't the person she'd expected. She was nice, though, and I liked her. I walked Erin to class and then headed to criminal justice. I told her I'd pick her up after class because my class usually got out late - and that day was the one time it got out late. I now have this one hour massive panel discussion thing to do next Thursday on top of the paper abstract due Tuesday, which means I am going to spend tomorrow, rather ostensibly and to Brad's great pleasure, in the library doing research. The library freaks me out. But I caught Erin just as she was heading out of the building and we went to lunch together. I'm still a little weird about eating. On Wednesday I hit a seriously bad case of the dry heaves for no good reason and food has been sort of touch-and-go ever since. We ate pretty quickly and then I retreated to my room to get some reading done. I agreed to go freak shopping with BenTen for a gag gift for her man. We also hit the DI, the Catholic thrift store and the DQ to check on a cake. I am soooooo going to need pills for the party. Pizza and ice cream cake? A special kind of poison, let me tell ya. Afterwards, well, I was mopey. I confess, I get dreadfully mopey if I haven't seen Nick all day, so I decided to brave hell floor and go see him. The mopey-ness is what constitutes the 'pathetic' of mine and Del's "SHGP Shiny Happy Glowy PATHETIC" slogan. His floor was scary enough when they left the door propped open, but now the door is shut, and it's weird. I seriously felt like I was approaching the gate to hell as I headed up the stairs toward it. It opens fine, but swings shut slowly, with that classic horror movie creaky noise that says a demon will jump out and attack you as soon as the door is shut. I just sort of stood nervously in front of Nick and talked to him, said hi and made sure he was all right. Hugged him and fled. That place is so creepy. A bunch of us headed down to supper together and ate in the Lightning Lounge because no one uses it and we're determined to turn it into nerdspace. Nick did show up for supper and we all sat around talking until gaming came about. Pell's campaign is awesome. Luka got way more action this time around - I tried her magic (without earning some seriously hard paradox) and even fought. Apparently Rowsdower loves it when kids go around stabbing people. Luka is pretty vicious little girl. She also needs to learn how to drive a motorcycle. She broke Marty's character's arm with a spell and was gagged as a result. Some grandly shocking moments emerged from that. I love being able to shock NPC's in game, and Marty and I teamed up. No one remembers that Luka is all of eleven, though. Now she knows he's a weretiger, at least. Maybe I ought to see if she figures out that Pell and BenTen's characters are vampires. I can never remember the names of BenTen's characters. Grrrrr. But gaming was fun. I retreated to my room to finish up some homework and turned in for the night when I started nodding off over the Said book. When we were in the Lightning lounge, Del ate with us for once because she didn't work. We all took turns being childish and jumping onto the love sacs, and Del took a nasty thump. Now she looks like a battered wife and her vision is sorta blurry in one eye. Erin and I sorta spazzed out with Alycen (our RA) told us that Del's pupils weren't dilating properly so we took poor Del to the hospital in the middle of the night just to be safe. I just wouldn't feel right if she'd died on us or something. How would we explain that to her mother? But hey, at least everyone made it home safe.
Rodney didn't show up for American lit on Wednesday so we couldn't carry out his nefarious plans for today. Del and I passed notes - something I haven't done in a while - going over the finer notes of intention versus intentionality. I headed back to my dorm after checking my mail and stuff and decided to settle in to read me some Ovid when the phone rang. It was BenTen. She had said it would be cool if I picked her up at nine. It was nine twenty when I ran to my car to get her. I felt so bad about forgetting, but she was cool about it. Then we spent about ten minutes attempting to parallel park my car and laughing. I had done so just fine the night before with Del's instruction, but BenTen's was clearly not working so we just ended up trying for a spot in the back, with some surprisingly decent success. Continental Lit was awesome, as usual. We had fun talking about Catullus and his surprisingly modern love poems, for all that they were written during the Roman Republic. Most of us were sort of amused at his angst, although one girl said she sympathised with him. I pointed out that at the end of a relationship everyone looks back and goes, "Gosh, that was pathetic, wasn't it?" I said it for Del because it's the sort of thing she'd laugh at. Lunch was a simple affair. Aya and Panda were there, as well as Alex and Seirra's coworker Holly. Eventually we all departed. I read some Said, and then slept some. Rowsmakitty woke me up, and neither me, nor Del nor Rowsdower wanted to go to class, but we went anyway. I didn't get a headache from critical methods this time. I met up with my CJ presentation group afterward and we have our project all divided and ready to go, so we'll meet again on Wednesday and get some last details ironed out. I didn't realize Misti had a daughter. But I like her. She's cool. Cory is cool. Robert is sort of annoying, but I'm willing to work with the guy.
After the meeting I headed back to the dorms and debated the merits of braving hellfloor again and seeing if Nick was alive. Calland cancelled the paper and worksheet that would have been due Monday, so now my workload seems significantly lighter (a point Brad would very much like to dispute) and so I was willing to do some slacking. He was awake, so we headed to my room to watch some Outlaw Star that Josh generously provided. Then we went to supper. On the way to supper I saw Erin walking from the Housing office, so I slowed down to wait for her so we could walk together, and I saw that she was really on the edge. I gave her a hug and she sorta started to cry, so I sent the boys ahead and took her back to my room. I have her some Kleenex and just watched helplessly while she cried. I am so not good at dealing with crying girls, but I'm willing for my friends. :D She said that she talked to Newman and he said there was nothing legally he could do to evil stalker man, but he wasn't very sensitive about it either and Erin is genuinely freaked out. She calmed down enough to face the world, and we headed to dinner. For one moment I had this strange irrational thought to ask her to kneel down with me and pray (Schuldig is guffawing in disbelief and where did Farfarello get that poniard?), and then decided against it on threat of being rendered flamey, and recommended she ask someone for a blessing. That's the one downfall of not knowing any LDS boys - we have no one to call up in the middle of the night for blessings. Erin mentioned that her parents were coming down to deliver her car and she could ask her father for a blessing, which seemed like a much better option.
After supper we all went more or less our separate ways, except Nick followed me back to my place and we watched some more Outlaw Star. That boy is perpetually sleepy and hungry, and I joked that he was probably growing again. He looked a little startled when I mentioned that some boys don't stop growing until they're up in their twenties. He's funny when he's sleepy, making cute sleepy kitten noises. He also discovered that when we're curled up just right his eyelashes (very long and make me jealous) brush my ear in a very ticklish butterfly kiss, so he tried to find out just how ticklish I was. Anyone else who knows me knows that I am disappointingly non-ticklish. It sort of wore off as I emerged from childhood. In the end I let him sleep and just curled up next to him and read for a bit. The rest of the girls on our floor were really really loud, and Nick sort of wondered how I slept through it. I didn't think it would look quite right if a disheveled boy stepped out of my room and politely asked them to keep it down because he was trying to sleep. Josh got a job with BenTen so we woke her at half past nine and they went to work together. Eventually Nick retreated to his own room to finish sleeping - also abandoning his sneakers, so I expect to see him sometime tomorrow when he realizes his shoes are missing. Erin and I went to visit Del before she went off to visit the Rodney again. Apparently Rowsdower is a little puzzled at the emergence of a sort-of relationship from them. Heh heh. Me sleeping on and off next to Nick was a supremely bad idea, as Brad pointed out constantly even when I was studying, so now I am annoyingly (but happily!) awake and updating my journal. I ran into Kawaranai and K-san online until Alex knocked on the window for a visit. We talked a bit and then had to wait until the girls on my floor settled down so he could sneak out. So this update thing has taken a lot longer than it should have and I've listened to a load of music.
Good night, all.
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Date: 2005-10-29 07:14 pm (UTC)