Day 1364: And miles to go before I sleep

[nagi_schwarz]

All I want to do is sleep. All the time. I pulled a couple of chairs around in my office so I can literally kick my feet up and work with my laptop on my lap.

And also maybe turn off the lights and take a nap.

I've taken a lot of naps and indulged in puppy cuddles and slept in where I can. I feel low-grade nauseous all the time, and those ginger candies and the aromatherapy from my colleague help, but it's kinda irritating all the same.

It was a long week at work. In court four days out of five. In high conflict meetings pretty much the rest of the time. Had to lay all my cards on the table for a mother during mediation for a case in which we removed her children for the exact same reason they were removed three years ago.

The exact same reason. Same players involved.

After three years of intense services, there is literally nothing else we can do for that family except stop trying the same thing over and over again and expecting a new result.

Learned some cool new stuff at tatting, and that was fun, but I didn't end up going to dance. Instead I napped and ate pizza.

Also, had a miscarriage scare at the beginning of the week, scary enough that they got me in for an ultrasound that day (conveniently, the meeting I was going to skip to make the ultrasound was canceled on account of that boy trying to kill himself the night before; this job is so terrible sometimes).

Good news is baby is okay! At the time of the ultrasound, she measured six weeks on the nose, per the technician's report (my husband is convinced that Baby Seedling is a girl). Also, we got to hear Baby's Heartbeat! I didn't realize babies had beating hearts so early in the process, but it was super cool. Heartbeat sounded totally fine, no concerns. The doctor is still keeping a close eye on me, but so far so good!

I was less than pleased when the judge unnecessarily scheduled a hearing at the same time as my next ultrasound, so I had to reschedule it, and the next available date they had was when my husband is out of town on a business trip (fingers crossed for possible grown up job offer). Thankfully he was present for this week's ultrasound, so he got to hear Baby Seedling's heartbeat, and that's good.

I got to eat lunch with the new paralegal for reals, and it was super cool getting to know her. I think she will be a good fit for our office.

This week I went axe-throwing for the first time! It's a new thing around here. I went with my husband and my now ex-brother-in-law...to celebrate his divorce from my sister getting finalized (which might make me the worst sister ever, but this is what's best for the kids, to have some stability and permanency afforded to them by settled legal arrangements). It was super fun! And I even did pretty good at getting the axe to stick. All those years of kendo finally paid off haha.

Saturday some of Cody's lab buddies came over and we all forged knives. Five in three hours, not including grinding and heat treat. And then we went out for pizza. It was fun! I super appreciate the skill Cody has acquired over the years, doing that over and over again. It was an awesome learning experience! We are hoping to get to together and finish handles this weekend.

Gonna be a long week at work, but that's okay.

We got this!

Me and my husband and our puppies and my ginger candies and my naps...

Comments

[minoanmiss]

Oh my WOW. *sends you all good vibes for the next 34 weeks and the rest of your life*

Some other time I'll give you my Found Family spiel.

[nagi_schwarz]

Thank you so much! Baby Seedling needs all the good vibes she can get.

I'd love to hear your thoughts on Found Family. :)

[minoanmiss]

*blushes*

Okay, so, I actually know quite a few people who are friends with their family members' exes because those exes are worthwhile people worth knowing. The people in my everyday life are people I met and became close to, and not just because I'm estranged from my family of birth. I think the family we make can often be the truest of all.

[nagi_schwarz]

As they say, the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water of the womb. :)

[tetsubinatu]

So glad to hear that Seedling and you are both doing well. Amazing to hear her heartbeat isn't it! I needed some hormone treatment to get pregnant the first time (I had PCOS) so my first ultrasound was really early too, and I remember the wonder of that moment. First trimester is soooo ridiculously tiring! I hope the nausea fades quickly. Two of mine made me nauseated only in the first trimester but the third lasted longer.

So jealous that you made knives! I'd love to do that. Maybe I will, one day.

[nagi_schwarz]

Thanks! That first scare was kind of nerve-wracking no lies.

As for making knives...find a hobby blacksmith who lives near you. They're usually pretty glad to teach. :)

[aome]

I'm glad the scare didn't turn out to be anything bad. Yay for hearing the heartbeat!

(Also, as sucky as it is, I've heard that the worse you feel, the better the pregnancy is going. Dunno if that's true or just an old wives' tale, but maybe it'll make you feel better?)

[nagi_schwarz]

Thanks! I'm glad Baby Seedling is all right as well.

...I hear lots of morning sickness usually means a girl? Not sure. I have heard that lots of nausea is a good sign. We shall see...