Day 1009: Home after Christmas
Dec. 28th, 2011 07:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nagi_schwarzIt occurred to me, with bittersweet dawning, that my parents' home is no longer my home anymore. I will always be welcome there, and I will always be comfortable there - I know my way around in the dark - but my home is with Cody now. In the chill of Idaho. A fact I'm still not entirely comfortable with. The blue room down the hall from the kitchen is no longer my room - it's a guest room that used to be my room.
Christmas was both wonderful and terrible. It was wonderful because I got to see my family, eat lots of good food, and spend time with my baby niece, who is super adorable. Also, watching Cody hold her and sing to her is super adorable. Cody and I learned to play a few songs together, him on the bass, me on the guitar. I got to see Audi the chihuahua, who is officially a senior citizen now, which is sad and also kind of weird. I got lots of shiny presents, much more than I was expecting because everyone has been muttering about how this year was going to be tight and so we agreed to do a tiny gift exchange. I always feel awful because Mum never has as many gifts as the rest of us, and she does so much for us. I got to see my best friend from college, which always cheers me up no matter how awful I feel. And, thank the heavens, I was warm.
Christmas was terrible in its own small ways because Cody and I were both ill. Him first, then me. He was coming out of it in time for Christmas, so naturally I started feeling awful in time for Christmas. Cody and Dad gave me a blessing, though, so I felt great for Christmas day. And then awful on the days that followed. Headaches, mucus, and nausea followed, and they continue to plague me today. Also, I saw my Aunt Faye for the last time. She's suffering from pancreatic cancer, and she really has no chance of surviving. Also, I finally told Cody how much I really dislike living in Idaho. There were sniffles and misunderstandings. He told me that it's a really good place and I'll come to like it, and if I learn to snowboard I will come to love snow. He also said I need to try harder.
I was pretty mad. Maybe I do need to try harder, but I don't think he understands - I am genetically predisposed to hate the cold and snow, and no amount of throwing myself recklessly down a snow-covered hill will make me like it more.
Still, we patched things up, and we made it home safely. We stopped by my sister's place so Cody and her husband could chat about windows. We also stopped by Cody's parents' house to say hello, and Cody's mom gave us more Christmas presents, which she really didn't have to.
Today Cody and I slept in, then cleaned house - hauled a whole bunch of stuff out to the garage, organized stuff in bins, and then Cody took off to procure us some tables - one from his parents, one he built on his own. I stayed here and organized some more, and then I crocheted to Smallville. I'd be crocheting still, except my left hand hurts - chaining is more arduous than I remember.
Cody's coming home soon, and so I will start cooking dinner.
I'm almost done with Season Five, which leaves Season Six - and then Cody's parents have no more seasons. Woeface! But I have a writing buddy now, so maybe I'll start getting real writing done. Also, I got new books for Christmas, some bought, some borrowed, and reading will happen. And...urgh. I do not have a job. And I need to get one. Madness is forthcoming.
Christmas was both wonderful and terrible. It was wonderful because I got to see my family, eat lots of good food, and spend time with my baby niece, who is super adorable. Also, watching Cody hold her and sing to her is super adorable. Cody and I learned to play a few songs together, him on the bass, me on the guitar. I got to see Audi the chihuahua, who is officially a senior citizen now, which is sad and also kind of weird. I got lots of shiny presents, much more than I was expecting because everyone has been muttering about how this year was going to be tight and so we agreed to do a tiny gift exchange. I always feel awful because Mum never has as many gifts as the rest of us, and she does so much for us. I got to see my best friend from college, which always cheers me up no matter how awful I feel. And, thank the heavens, I was warm.
Christmas was terrible in its own small ways because Cody and I were both ill. Him first, then me. He was coming out of it in time for Christmas, so naturally I started feeling awful in time for Christmas. Cody and Dad gave me a blessing, though, so I felt great for Christmas day. And then awful on the days that followed. Headaches, mucus, and nausea followed, and they continue to plague me today. Also, I saw my Aunt Faye for the last time. She's suffering from pancreatic cancer, and she really has no chance of surviving. Also, I finally told Cody how much I really dislike living in Idaho. There were sniffles and misunderstandings. He told me that it's a really good place and I'll come to like it, and if I learn to snowboard I will come to love snow. He also said I need to try harder.
I was pretty mad. Maybe I do need to try harder, but I don't think he understands - I am genetically predisposed to hate the cold and snow, and no amount of throwing myself recklessly down a snow-covered hill will make me like it more.
Still, we patched things up, and we made it home safely. We stopped by my sister's place so Cody and her husband could chat about windows. We also stopped by Cody's parents' house to say hello, and Cody's mom gave us more Christmas presents, which she really didn't have to.
Today Cody and I slept in, then cleaned house - hauled a whole bunch of stuff out to the garage, organized stuff in bins, and then Cody took off to procure us some tables - one from his parents, one he built on his own. I stayed here and organized some more, and then I crocheted to Smallville. I'd be crocheting still, except my left hand hurts - chaining is more arduous than I remember.
Cody's coming home soon, and so I will start cooking dinner.
I'm almost done with Season Five, which leaves Season Six - and then Cody's parents have no more seasons. Woeface! But I have a writing buddy now, so maybe I'll start getting real writing done. Also, I got new books for Christmas, some bought, some borrowed, and reading will happen. And...urgh. I do not have a job. And I need to get one. Madness is forthcoming.
