Day 451: Bring on the ambivalence

That's been me this week. Mostly ambivalent. BenTen is right - I spend too much time in my own. These last few days I've been getting in touch with my inner Schwarz and swallowed everything there was of the Alles Schwarz series every moment I had. Work has been all right - not so much boring data entry. Brad the boss's mom has been in the office helping out, so I've had to listen to lame, sleep-inducing music around her so as not to put the fear of J-rock into her. But work is going all right. I'm always paranoid there, as it's my first real job and I'm determined not to screw up and get fired. I think it's first-day-of-class syndrome gone on too long, where they tell you how tough it is and then it ends up not being that tough. I think I'll have to do something really horrible to get fired, but I'm not going to slack off and take the chance.

I have also hit midweek apathy. I am numb to all thoughts of him because it's better than being keyed up about it all week. At the beginning of the week I miss him, and near the end I want to see him again, but smack dab in the middle I don't dare give a damn.

The highlight of my day, was, sadly enough, killing 1000 heartless on KH2. How is that for sad? But I'm really loving the game, story-wise. I had dinner with my mom and sister, and then my mom and I watched The Departed. The actors did awesome jobs, but I didn't think it was half as awesome as people said it would be.

Mom did some more photo work for the will. It's pretty well and finished, actually, because today she got all the furniture. I missed going to the gym this morning, I guess because I forgot to set my alarm. I was disoriented for a while this morning because of that. Tomorrow I hope to actually make it to said gym.

And I should go to bed.